Hopes and dreams play such a big part of my life. If not for them i wouldnt have reached till this stage of my life...of which i am quite satisfied with..(although there is always plenty of room for improvement). Amidst all the hustle bustle of life in NUS rag...my perspective of life has been getting more optimistic than ever.
Being in Science aint a bad thing afterall. Prospects in Science aint as bad as people say afterall. Friends in Science are great friends indeed. So whats there to worry about?
Modules. Pathing my future is proving to be much of a brain-sapping task. Not that i detest it....i enjoy the control i have over the plotting of my life...but its juz that with all the commitment into rag dance, i do not have the luxury of time to really sit down and have a full analysis of my modular plotting. Well...but im doing well so far... its all about time and energy management. But there are really so many doors of opportunities...i have to maximise my available choice yet still choose the right door to venture into. Man...i love the challenge!!!
Rag Dance. Cant be more fun and crazy. Those buncha peeps are the most fun and happening people around!!! Though i really seem introverted with their super explosive self-high personalities, im really glad they pulled me into it and im starting to open up and be wild too!!! haha..WOOT!!! EXTREMELY FUN!!! but its still tiring to the body..haha.
Social. Friends have always played a key role in my life. Im glad that im making alot of new and close friends!!! A lot of worthy friends are still out there for me to further my understanding. Its been really great!!! I cant wait to get to know even more friends!! :D
Me. Everyday is a great new day (besides crawling outta my bed early for dance and snoozing for 20min every morning). I learn new things, know people better, and know myself better. Im maturing and growing with every experience everyday...everything's looking great!!!
Cant wait for the day we perform for the public at Rag Day and compete for the Chancellor's Shield!!! (Its gonna be ours!!!!). Cant wait for school to start. Cant wait to meet new friends and make closer friends!!!
Cant wait to finally make my first step towards my dream...
Monday, July 30, 2007
Tuesday, July 17, 2007
Midnight issues...
Im up. Im still up. These days im just sleeping less and doing more. So this is one of the times i feel my mind's exploding with subconscious issues yet i cant pinpoint what is it exactly. My conscious mind is too tired to sift things out for critical analysis of my inner self.
Everyday i learn new things. Everyday i have new ideas. I dunno how to put it...but with whatever conscious energy i have...i could only come up with this:
I am searching. Searching for something elusive in my life. I dont really know what is it. I have clear goals set out for my life...so what is it that im still searching? A sense of security about my future? A feeling of love to make me feel complete? The bonding of friends to make me feel wanted? ..... i cant really pinpoint it yet....but its juz gnawing inside me. Brooding.
I am not one to let my inner troubles subside and fade...i will pull it out, analyse it, and solve the problem. That is how i keep in touch with my inner self, no matter how tormenting it might be to wage war with my inner self. That is how i learn, that is how i grow, that is how i mature.
Maybe its time....my subconscious is telling me...its time i head to a park or a beach to sit down and 'talk' with myself. To think about my life, my heart, my soul.....
Everyday i learn new things. Everyday i have new ideas. I dunno how to put it...but with whatever conscious energy i have...i could only come up with this:
I am searching. Searching for something elusive in my life. I dont really know what is it. I have clear goals set out for my life...so what is it that im still searching? A sense of security about my future? A feeling of love to make me feel complete? The bonding of friends to make me feel wanted? ..... i cant really pinpoint it yet....but its juz gnawing inside me. Brooding.
I am not one to let my inner troubles subside and fade...i will pull it out, analyse it, and solve the problem. That is how i keep in touch with my inner self, no matter how tormenting it might be to wage war with my inner self. That is how i learn, that is how i grow, that is how i mature.
Maybe its time....my subconscious is telling me...its time i head to a park or a beach to sit down and 'talk' with myself. To think about my life, my heart, my soul.....
Thursday, July 12, 2007
Busy...busy...busy
Was trying to post something about dreams, having watched Pursuit of Happyness some days ago on DVD ...but i dun really have the energy to organise my swirling thoughts and type it out here... so ill just go for something casual for this post.
Yep very busy right now. Extremely busy. Never would i imagine myself to take part in science rag dance!!! haha well its hell lots of fun getting involved in something brand new!! but its very tiring, especially when its 4 days a week and 7 hrs a day... on top of my work. The people there are crazy and have self-explosive personalities so i seemed even more so like some quiet freak...aww damned. Wells good thing is they are all friendly people...abit high and crazy like me when i manage to really let go and let myself out. haha...so im sure ill start to open myself up in time to come!!!
The time i have online right now to chill and listen to songs is really a luxury....
For 4 days everyweek i have to wake up at 7.30 am for dance sessions @ NUS till 4 pm and rush back to work from 5 pm till 10 pm. The remaining weekday w/o dance i have to work from 9.30 am till 11 pm to cover up my lost working hours due to dance. (actually its self-imposed cuz i got work responsibilities i cant let go). Weekends? I still work from 9.30 am to 6 pm and theres tuition till 9 pm after that. So everyday i go out b4 the sun is fully up and come back after the sun is way down. If there happen to be ANY free time, they will be given to my bros, my friends, and the sci rag events.
Haha no wonder my IC at work calls me a superman...lol...everyday i have schedules fully packed and everyday i sleep less than 6 hrs... yet i can still keep my spirits and energy up (i think...)
Well im not complaining cuz i really think im making every minute of my life count. Im trying out new things, making many new friends, and still chasing my goals and dreams!!! Aside from some emotional setback...my life couldnt be more fulfilling. 24 hrs a day is simply not enough!!!
Yep very busy right now. Extremely busy. Never would i imagine myself to take part in science rag dance!!! haha well its hell lots of fun getting involved in something brand new!! but its very tiring, especially when its 4 days a week and 7 hrs a day... on top of my work. The people there are crazy and have self-explosive personalities so i seemed even more so like some quiet freak...aww damned. Wells good thing is they are all friendly people...abit high and crazy like me when i manage to really let go and let myself out. haha...so im sure ill start to open myself up in time to come!!!
The time i have online right now to chill and listen to songs is really a luxury....
For 4 days everyweek i have to wake up at 7.30 am for dance sessions @ NUS till 4 pm and rush back to work from 5 pm till 10 pm. The remaining weekday w/o dance i have to work from 9.30 am till 11 pm to cover up my lost working hours due to dance. (actually its self-imposed cuz i got work responsibilities i cant let go). Weekends? I still work from 9.30 am to 6 pm and theres tuition till 9 pm after that. So everyday i go out b4 the sun is fully up and come back after the sun is way down. If there happen to be ANY free time, they will be given to my bros, my friends, and the sci rag events.
Haha no wonder my IC at work calls me a superman...lol...everyday i have schedules fully packed and everyday i sleep less than 6 hrs... yet i can still keep my spirits and energy up (i think...)
Well im not complaining cuz i really think im making every minute of my life count. Im trying out new things, making many new friends, and still chasing my goals and dreams!!! Aside from some emotional setback...my life couldnt be more fulfilling. 24 hrs a day is simply not enough!!!
Sunday, July 01, 2007
Why do good guys always lose out in BGR???
Actually...part of me has already analysed the answer through my past readings in psychology and some personal experiences...but...i still hate to swallow the fact that good, nice guys will always lose out in getting a gal they want to 'bad', or rather guys with an attitude.
Ive heard countless stories. Good, nice guy chases gal, showers her with love, care, concern like no other. Gal accepts it. Then here are the three most general options (i think) when the nice guy expresses his liking.....
OPTION 1 : give him a chance to become a boyfriend. he continues showering her with utmost care and concern. May have long-term relationship depending on personality match. but gal MAY take nice guy's concern for granted, comment theres no spark or chemistry and end it off. (maybe) theres alot of variations to this, but so far ive seen more sad stories than happy ones.
OPTION 2: give him a praise of 'nice guy' as a certificate of recognition for being the nicest guy to her... and stay that way. he will always be her guardian angel, her best friend.pronto.(not that the nice guy wld mind. actually he knows this is coming and will stay contented that way. stupid nice guys. so nice they are dumb)
"stay there for me, u r the nicest person to me. but sorry, we cant work out in bgr. thanks."
OPTION 3: sharp gal sees it coming. Before the nice guy makes any obvious moves of declaration, she drops hints to him to let him know that its not possible. Sharp nice guy either gets it, back off, prob still be her best friend. Or dumb nice guy will juz continue to pursue her until something makes him realise juz how stupid he is.
Haha...these are the few general options ive come up with. Sigh...but seriously i tink theres nth wrong with gals. 'bad' guys with an attitude are always appealing, charismatic, romantic...who wun like em? Nice guys sometimes fail to make the relationship exciting. They cant spice things up. Yes they have all the sweet nice gestures but over time gals may take it for granted. Prob gals want an exciting dramatic relationship than a dull one...i really dunno.
....can anyone enlighten me on this, please? but then again...whose reading this blog anyways?
hey dingli of the future, how will u tink of it then? lost faith in gals liao? become super 'niao3' with an attitude? cant be bothered liao? or are u still the same and is still collecting the recognition of nice guy certificate and compiling them to albums?
I noe i have an attitude....just gotta bring 'him' out.
'hey dingli, u r a nice guy' -_-
yeah i noe...and sometimes...i dread hearing that...cuz that means its gonna be tough being her bf....
Sometimes, when this topic hits upon me....juz sometimes...i just feel...im sick of being a nice guy. but i noe i cant get away from it because my inner core is just that....nice. haiz. I guess its time i accept this part of myself and the truth of relationship reality...
To all nice guys in the world... someday, a gal will step into your life and truly appreciate who you really are. Believe... stay firm, your day will come.
CHEERS!!!!.....y is it i still feel the truth gnawing inside....damned...but....
ALL THE BEST, MR NICE GUYS!!!!
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Ive heard countless stories. Good, nice guy chases gal, showers her with love, care, concern like no other. Gal accepts it. Then here are the three most general options (i think) when the nice guy expresses his liking.....
OPTION 1 : give him a chance to become a boyfriend. he continues showering her with utmost care and concern. May have long-term relationship depending on personality match. but gal MAY take nice guy's concern for granted, comment theres no spark or chemistry and end it off. (maybe) theres alot of variations to this, but so far ive seen more sad stories than happy ones.
OPTION 2: give him a praise of 'nice guy' as a certificate of recognition for being the nicest guy to her... and stay that way. he will always be her guardian angel, her best friend.pronto.(not that the nice guy wld mind. actually he knows this is coming and will stay contented that way. stupid nice guys. so nice they are dumb)
"stay there for me, u r the nicest person to me. but sorry, we cant work out in bgr. thanks."
OPTION 3: sharp gal sees it coming. Before the nice guy makes any obvious moves of declaration, she drops hints to him to let him know that its not possible. Sharp nice guy either gets it, back off, prob still be her best friend. Or dumb nice guy will juz continue to pursue her until something makes him realise juz how stupid he is.
Haha...these are the few general options ive come up with. Sigh...but seriously i tink theres nth wrong with gals. 'bad' guys with an attitude are always appealing, charismatic, romantic...who wun like em? Nice guys sometimes fail to make the relationship exciting. They cant spice things up. Yes they have all the sweet nice gestures but over time gals may take it for granted. Prob gals want an exciting dramatic relationship than a dull one...i really dunno.
....can anyone enlighten me on this, please? but then again...whose reading this blog anyways?
hey dingli of the future, how will u tink of it then? lost faith in gals liao? become super 'niao3' with an attitude? cant be bothered liao? or are u still the same and is still collecting the recognition of nice guy certificate and compiling them to albums?
I noe i have an attitude....just gotta bring 'him' out.
'hey dingli, u r a nice guy' -_-
yeah i noe...and sometimes...i dread hearing that...cuz that means its gonna be tough being her bf....
Sometimes, when this topic hits upon me....juz sometimes...i just feel...im sick of being a nice guy. but i noe i cant get away from it because my inner core is just that....nice. haiz. I guess its time i accept this part of myself and the truth of relationship reality...
To all nice guys in the world... someday, a gal will step into your life and truly appreciate who you really are. Believe... stay firm, your day will come.
CHEERS!!!!.....y is it i still feel the truth gnawing inside....damned...but....
ALL THE BEST, MR NICE GUYS!!!!
............
The SCAMP experience!!!!
Last week has been a helluva lifetime experience for me. I took part in Science Camp (SCAMP) and i never regret the decision at all....though initially i was getting worried how i might clamp up as always in front of gals there.
Well it turned out very well!!! I managed to break through my social barriars and really made many many friends! Ive never chatted so much with gals before so it was really a refreshing experience for a guy whose been gal-shy for the past 21 yrs. ...I guess for the past many years ive just been seeing gals as aliens..they are humans afterall....though very different from guys...haha.
Back to SCAMP. It was really really great fun! Theres games where i get covered with flour, ketchup, detergent; scavenger hunt where we walked around the campus looking for stuff; mass dance which i really enjoyed; amazing race 'round the island; war and beach games; special pal session; fright night and many more!!!
Ive thoroughly enjoyed myself over the 5 days with each and every activity and its really gonna something ill remember for the rest of my life. The memories still ring clear in my mind....i guess its time to enjoy life while im still young!!!
Well it turned out very well!!! I managed to break through my social barriars and really made many many friends! Ive never chatted so much with gals before so it was really a refreshing experience for a guy whose been gal-shy for the past 21 yrs. ...I guess for the past many years ive just been seeing gals as aliens..they are humans afterall....though very different from guys...haha.
Back to SCAMP. It was really really great fun! Theres games where i get covered with flour, ketchup, detergent; scavenger hunt where we walked around the campus looking for stuff; mass dance which i really enjoyed; amazing race 'round the island; war and beach games; special pal session; fright night and many more!!!
Ive thoroughly enjoyed myself over the 5 days with each and every activity and its really gonna something ill remember for the rest of my life. The memories still ring clear in my mind....i guess its time to enjoy life while im still young!!!