Something is happening within me. I have no idea why and i really want to find out, yet i have simply no time n energy to do some intense introspection. Sighz. All i feel is im tired, inside-out. I do not have the same zest and drive as i had in the past. I couldnt take up as many things as i though i could....what is happening to me????
And when my internal system sounds its alarms....all my energy will be diverted inside...resulting in me being highly anti-social nowadays...i hope my friends wont distant from me too much after ive resolved this problem.
Maybe...i just feel burnt out. Ever since i got outta NDU, ive not stopped working, for one thing or another. i still remember i acty reported to my new job the next day i ORD...then SCAMP, then RAG, then a year of directorship....then so many commitments.
Now ive learnt my lesson. ALWAYS gauge myself properly, dont bite off more than i can chew. Focus my energy on important things then consider other aspects of life.
I guess im just burnt out.
I guess i just need more time to rediscover and refine my life goals.
I guess i just need more sleep.
I need a holiday.
