Soulless

Distraction of the mind helps to block away my sorrows....yet the bring up other problems.
I lack focus and concentration to complete my NS job efficiently.

My 2.4 run was one of the worst ever. It made me feel even lousier than before...piled with all the depression i have now...it just makes me fall deeper into the sadness.

i dont even know how to describe my inner world anymore. its bascially a big mess.

im tired. im really tired.

i have long forgotten the time when my whole being would smile from within. a true genuine smile from the heart. i have lost it. i have lost my soul.