This is the time of his life.
23 years old,
Chemistry major,
passionate about his dreams,
determined of his goals,
yet uncertain about the paths in his life.
Ironic. But that is life.
He looks back.
A past so dark he would forever hide.
Yet from darkness within springs new hope, new determination.
A blinding light from his unwavering soul.
He hurls himself into the fray of life.
Healing old wounds, breaking new boundaries
Forming new bonds, cherishing old comrades.
Relooking into his past, while searching for his future.
So now he stands,
At yet another crossroad in life.
A decision that would alter his fate.
A chance to carve out his own future.
As the wheels of time turn,
The winds of change blows.
Which will be his destined path?
Or has the decision already been destined upon?
For his passion,
For his dreams,
For his goals,
For his future, he strives on.
With the promise he made to himself,
and the spirit that lives on within.
He shall never give up.
He will always move forward.
The future may not be certain.
But his heart is true.
He believes in his path,
And nothing will stand in his way.
Friday, April 10, 2009
Thursday, March 19, 2009
AWESOMENESS
ahahah...amidst all this hustle bustle stress...i chanced upon an interesting and quirky quote which might help me in the future. so here it goes:
AWESOMENESS
when you are sad, dont be sad, be awesome instead
LOL. wth is it...but it sorta makes some sense. No point brooding, worrying, stressing out cuz it will not tantamount to doing anything useful...so instead of wasting time and energy being negative.....
BE AWESOME INSTEAD!
:D
For my goals and dreams, fight on!
AWESOMENESS
when you are sad, dont be sad, be awesome instead
LOL. wth is it...but it sorta makes some sense. No point brooding, worrying, stressing out cuz it will not tantamount to doing anything useful...so instead of wasting time and energy being negative.....
BE AWESOME INSTEAD!
:D
For my goals and dreams, fight on!
Saturday, March 07, 2009
Into the caves..
Yes i am rapidly becoming a hard-core mugger. Any free time i have i want to study, majority of the time my mind is on some chemistry phenomenon or whats my next thing to do. It tiring and lonely to be a mugger. Everyday i spend all my free slots in the library, flipping through books, reading notes, doing questions.
How i wish i can step out of the world again and make a difference to other people's lives...but i realised if i cant even take care of my own life...i can forget about stepping out. Hence the strong determination to get my inner world, and my grades back in order.
My dreams have not faltered. It has indeed gotten further with my poor grades ive accumulated over the past 3 semesters, but i am never one who gives up. Thats why the determination to get a CAP5.0. And to freaking do it..i have no choice but to bear the pain of loneliness and anti-social behaviour....sighz...i can feel my social skills being leached away in the library.
This will just be a passing phase. I will do it and i will achieve my dreams of being on the frontiers of scientific development. I will beat this system and carve out a road that belongs to my own. And as i lay in recluse.... wait for me, my friends and the world out there...when im ready ill step out once again and take the world by storm!!!
How i wish i can step out of the world again and make a difference to other people's lives...but i realised if i cant even take care of my own life...i can forget about stepping out. Hence the strong determination to get my inner world, and my grades back in order.
My dreams have not faltered. It has indeed gotten further with my poor grades ive accumulated over the past 3 semesters, but i am never one who gives up. Thats why the determination to get a CAP5.0. And to freaking do it..i have no choice but to bear the pain of loneliness and anti-social behaviour....sighz...i can feel my social skills being leached away in the library.
This will just be a passing phase. I will do it and i will achieve my dreams of being on the frontiers of scientific development. I will beat this system and carve out a road that belongs to my own. And as i lay in recluse.... wait for me, my friends and the world out there...when im ready ill step out once again and take the world by storm!!!
Sunday, February 15, 2009
The Pace of Life
Finally, my life has started to slow itself down relative to last year. I can finally spend precious time with my loved one, my family, my friends, and myself. I can study in peace and focus on my goals in life. Wanted to blog about the wonders of chemistry but i guess its for another time...
After a hectic year i realised the importance of finding time for myself. It has always been deadline after another, events back to back, schedule fully packed..there was never a time set for myself to do....nothing - just sit back, smell the roses in the path of life, observe my surroundings, and look deep into myself.
I remember back then i really had time to walk parks, sit quietly on benches, watching clouds roll by, reflecting on my life. Although being on the forefront of leadership and discovery is always what ive dreamt of, i realised that time spent alone with myself is important too. Too often was i stucked in a whirlpool of duties, responsibilities, and tasks that i have lost track of my inner world.
So now ive learnt...to always balance my time and energy to different aspects of life. Each part plays an important role to maintaining my overall well-being and i should always seek a balance in life. Remember that.
"To be bored is to stop reacting to the external world, and to explore the internal one. It is in these times of reflection that people often discover something new, whether it is an epiphany about a relationship or a new theory about the way the universe works. Granted, many people emerge from boredom feeling that they have accomplished nothing. But is accomplishment really the point of life? There is a strong argument that boredom - so often parodied as a glassy-eyed drooling state of nothingness - is an essential human emotion that underlies art, literature, philosophy, science and even love."
-The Joy of Boredom by Carolyn Johnson
After a hectic year i realised the importance of finding time for myself. It has always been deadline after another, events back to back, schedule fully packed..there was never a time set for myself to do....nothing - just sit back, smell the roses in the path of life, observe my surroundings, and look deep into myself.
I remember back then i really had time to walk parks, sit quietly on benches, watching clouds roll by, reflecting on my life. Although being on the forefront of leadership and discovery is always what ive dreamt of, i realised that time spent alone with myself is important too. Too often was i stucked in a whirlpool of duties, responsibilities, and tasks that i have lost track of my inner world.
So now ive learnt...to always balance my time and energy to different aspects of life. Each part plays an important role to maintaining my overall well-being and i should always seek a balance in life. Remember that.
"To be bored is to stop reacting to the external world, and to explore the internal one. It is in these times of reflection that people often discover something new, whether it is an epiphany about a relationship or a new theory about the way the universe works. Granted, many people emerge from boredom feeling that they have accomplished nothing. But is accomplishment really the point of life? There is a strong argument that boredom - so often parodied as a glassy-eyed drooling state of nothingness - is an essential human emotion that underlies art, literature, philosophy, science and even love."
-The Joy of Boredom by Carolyn Johnson
Friday, December 26, 2008
memories...
Its been a long, long time...many years have past yet somehow the dust have not settled. Images of the past flashed into my mind as though it happened yesterday...the emotions, the frame of mind, the scenes witnessed, burnt eternally into memory and tortured my soul till this very day....
My heart ached so badly. Tears flow uncontrollably. I screamed.
I woke up. My eyes still wet, my heart still acheing.
Was it a dream? Was it reality? Am i really awake?
It has been some time since it happened. No one truly knew what happened. I kept everything to myself, i suffered everything within.
I went to find her for answers.
"Hi , how are you? How have you been?"
She smiled.
"Im doing fine, i guess. Ha...very busy as always..."
She smiled.
"I wished you can see how i have grown and matured into a man i am today."
She smiled.
Her eyes always looked so peaceful, so loving, so kind....
I touched her cheeks, and gently wiped her face
"....its been so long....i missed you, i really do....it wasnt easy living by, but ive stayed true to myself, my dreams, my principles to become who i am today."
My heart wrenched. My tears rolled.
"How i wished, to have you witness how ive grown, how ive matured, how ive lived my life, and tell me how proud you are of me, how happy you are for me....."
She smiled. So gentle, so beautiful...
We sat together for the rest of the day, recalling the wonderful memories we've had together....No words were exchanged as we reveled in the silence of each other's company.
I slept comfortably in her arms....I dreamed...
I woke up.
Was it a dream? Was it reality? Am i really awake?
She was still there. And she was still smiling.
"I love you..i really missed you.."
I smiled.
thank you...thank you for everything that you have done for me...you will always remain in my heart. Forever and ever.
My heart ached so badly. Tears flow uncontrollably. I screamed.
I woke up. My eyes still wet, my heart still acheing.
Was it a dream? Was it reality? Am i really awake?
It has been some time since it happened. No one truly knew what happened. I kept everything to myself, i suffered everything within.
I went to find her for answers.
"Hi , how are you? How have you been?"
She smiled.
"Im doing fine, i guess. Ha...very busy as always..."
She smiled.
"I wished you can see how i have grown and matured into a man i am today."
She smiled.
Her eyes always looked so peaceful, so loving, so kind....
I touched her cheeks, and gently wiped her face
"....its been so long....i missed you, i really do....it wasnt easy living by, but ive stayed true to myself, my dreams, my principles to become who i am today."
My heart wrenched. My tears rolled.
"How i wished, to have you witness how ive grown, how ive matured, how ive lived my life, and tell me how proud you are of me, how happy you are for me....."
She smiled. So gentle, so beautiful...
We sat together for the rest of the day, recalling the wonderful memories we've had together....No words were exchanged as we reveled in the silence of each other's company.
I slept comfortably in her arms....I dreamed...
I woke up.
Was it a dream? Was it reality? Am i really awake?
She was still there. And she was still smiling.
"I love you..i really missed you.."
I smiled.
thank you...thank you for everything that you have done for me...you will always remain in my heart. Forever and ever.
Friday, November 07, 2008
Whats happening to me?
Something is happening within me. I have no idea why and i really want to find out, yet i have simply no time n energy to do some intense introspection. Sighz. All i feel is im tired, inside-out. I do not have the same zest and drive as i had in the past. I couldnt take up as many things as i though i could....what is happening to me????
And when my internal system sounds its alarms....all my energy will be diverted inside...resulting in me being highly anti-social nowadays...i hope my friends wont distant from me too much after ive resolved this problem.
Maybe...i just feel burnt out. Ever since i got outta NDU, ive not stopped working, for one thing or another. i still remember i acty reported to my new job the next day i ORD...then SCAMP, then RAG, then a year of directorship....then so many commitments.
Now ive learnt my lesson. ALWAYS gauge myself properly, dont bite off more than i can chew. Focus my energy on important things then consider other aspects of life.
I guess im just burnt out.
I guess i just need more time to rediscover and refine my life goals.
I guess i just need more sleep.
I need a holiday.
And when my internal system sounds its alarms....all my energy will be diverted inside...resulting in me being highly anti-social nowadays...i hope my friends wont distant from me too much after ive resolved this problem.
Maybe...i just feel burnt out. Ever since i got outta NDU, ive not stopped working, for one thing or another. i still remember i acty reported to my new job the next day i ORD...then SCAMP, then RAG, then a year of directorship....then so many commitments.
Now ive learnt my lesson. ALWAYS gauge myself properly, dont bite off more than i can chew. Focus my energy on important things then consider other aspects of life.
I guess im just burnt out.
I guess i just need more time to rediscover and refine my life goals.
I guess i just need more sleep.
I need a holiday.
Thursday, October 30, 2008
Someone tell me my limits!
Gosh...something i have to learn - when to know my limits and when to step out and take on challenges.
I am striving with whatever time and energy i have left to mug, mug and mug...but it still doesnt seem enough. I still have so much more that i need to know... the pursue of knowledge is indeed neverending. I seem to have over-committed myself again...with so many commitments at hand...i seriously need to control how much time and energy im spending on various stuff so that i can focus more on doing selected things properly instead of speading myself out too thin and reachin no where in the end.
Thats the thing about me, i love to challenge myself and stretch myself to the limits, at my own expense. And its usually my grades that take the first hit, then my energy, then my health....Im burning myself at both ends and im not reaching any concrete grounds.
Its time to manage my time properly and maintain my focus back to where it should be - studies. life. dreams.
Lets do it.
I am striving with whatever time and energy i have left to mug, mug and mug...but it still doesnt seem enough. I still have so much more that i need to know... the pursue of knowledge is indeed neverending. I seem to have over-committed myself again...with so many commitments at hand...i seriously need to control how much time and energy im spending on various stuff so that i can focus more on doing selected things properly instead of speading myself out too thin and reachin no where in the end.
Thats the thing about me, i love to challenge myself and stretch myself to the limits, at my own expense. And its usually my grades that take the first hit, then my energy, then my health....Im burning myself at both ends and im not reaching any concrete grounds.
Its time to manage my time properly and maintain my focus back to where it should be - studies. life. dreams.
Lets do it.
Monday, October 20, 2008
The beauty of sign language
Been too busy again these days :S. so much for not joining SCMC so i can have more time to study. My current commitments ive taken up saps about the same amount of time compared to when i took up the directorial role (i think. at least for now.) Well, although im very busy, i made a point to blog down this when i get the time to.
So it was on another busy saturday when i sat on the mrt. Thats when i saw a group of people communicating actively, their faces and body language tells that they were very much enjoying their conversation. No one else could understand them, no one else could hear them.
I observed curiously at their form of communication. Each had to pay attention to what the other was communicating about. They had to give their full attention and "listen". There was no sound amonst them but i feel it was a great conversation. So much more was communicated across.
How many times have we taken human relationships and communication for granted? Do we really pay attention to communicating with people? Are our minds and ears really actively open to what others are saying?
Indeed, i have learnt alot just through that small incident. Thats why i decided to write this down, and remind myself - Always listen intentively to what others are saying. Give them attention and respect.....and you will get them in return.
So it was on another busy saturday when i sat on the mrt. Thats when i saw a group of people communicating actively, their faces and body language tells that they were very much enjoying their conversation. No one else could understand them, no one else could hear them.
I observed curiously at their form of communication. Each had to pay attention to what the other was communicating about. They had to give their full attention and "listen". There was no sound amonst them but i feel it was a great conversation. So much more was communicated across.
How many times have we taken human relationships and communication for granted? Do we really pay attention to communicating with people? Are our minds and ears really actively open to what others are saying?
Indeed, i have learnt alot just through that small incident. Thats why i decided to write this down, and remind myself - Always listen intentively to what others are saying. Give them attention and respect.....and you will get them in return.
Saturday, October 04, 2008
Im back!!!
Hello! wow its been so long since i blogged...so long that i temporily forgot my password to access to this blog account :S. I am really getting more absent-minded.
Phew..its been a hectic year 1 in NUS. Crazy days, but i enjoyed every step of it. To all those who have entered my life, i thank them for making my days in NUS such a special one. One year has gone by...i have indeed learnt alot. Be it life, human relationship, leadership, time management, studies...and so much more. Such stuff i can never learn if i were to take the path as a pure mugger (which i had contemplated upon) but i guess i felt a different calling. As much as results are important to my future, i also want to make my life an exciting and enriching one. So here i am now, in the next phase of my year 2 life.
How will it be shaped? What paths will i take along the realities of life? I can never be too sure, but one thing remains clear - I shall never give up.
Phew..its been a hectic year 1 in NUS. Crazy days, but i enjoyed every step of it. To all those who have entered my life, i thank them for making my days in NUS such a special one. One year has gone by...i have indeed learnt alot. Be it life, human relationship, leadership, time management, studies...and so much more. Such stuff i can never learn if i were to take the path as a pure mugger (which i had contemplated upon) but i guess i felt a different calling. As much as results are important to my future, i also want to make my life an exciting and enriching one. So here i am now, in the next phase of my year 2 life.
How will it be shaped? What paths will i take along the realities of life? I can never be too sure, but one thing remains clear - I shall never give up.
Tuesday, April 15, 2008
Happiness...?
A few days ago, i chanced upon an interview on tv at CNA. It was an interview with some guy who has done research on "Happiness" and is going to give a talk about it. It was only a brief ten minute talk, but what ive gotten back was words of wisdom that will probably last a lifetime.
So, what is really is happiness? The problem with so many people is that they place the wrong perspective and measure on their happiness. How many times have u heard someone say "ill be happy if i can have...." many times followed by superficials like money, or power, or a car etc...
Actually, happiness is always within our reach, just that we are blinded by so many thing around us in life that we failed to notice what really matters. Sit down, think, recall, feel....what really, truly makes u happy? When you've got one thing, keep questioning and imagining that if u really have it, will it truly make u happy deep down?
After much thought, i realised...ive always been bogged down by grades, responsibilities, schoolwork, pressures from almost everywhere...and somehow lost sight of what matters the most, my own true happiness. Ive been busy adjusting to everyone's needs, answering to everyone else's problems that i have neglected myself.
What truly makes me happy inside...is spending quality time with someone i love,my brothers, my friends and my family. Those are the times i feel free...and just be myself. I love to have some quiet time by myself, taking walks...admiring the beauty of nature...and pursuing wisdom and knowledge. Chemistry's still my passion and i always derive fun learning it, you hardly hear me complaining about chemistry :)
With all those in mind, i shall not let other things in life get to me and bogged me down. Life is out there waiting for me to live upon. I will step out, live life, and be happy.
Happiness is a choice. Half empty or half-full, its really up to u to decide, aint it?
May whoever's reading it have some food for thought and find what truly makes u happy.
And to Dingli of the future, may you have found your happiness and stay true to it.
So, what is really is happiness? The problem with so many people is that they place the wrong perspective and measure on their happiness. How many times have u heard someone say "ill be happy if i can have...." many times followed by superficials like money, or power, or a car etc...
Actually, happiness is always within our reach, just that we are blinded by so many thing around us in life that we failed to notice what really matters. Sit down, think, recall, feel....what really, truly makes u happy? When you've got one thing, keep questioning and imagining that if u really have it, will it truly make u happy deep down?
After much thought, i realised...ive always been bogged down by grades, responsibilities, schoolwork, pressures from almost everywhere...and somehow lost sight of what matters the most, my own true happiness. Ive been busy adjusting to everyone's needs, answering to everyone else's problems that i have neglected myself.
What truly makes me happy inside...is spending quality time with someone i love,my brothers, my friends and my family. Those are the times i feel free...and just be myself. I love to have some quiet time by myself, taking walks...admiring the beauty of nature...and pursuing wisdom and knowledge. Chemistry's still my passion and i always derive fun learning it, you hardly hear me complaining about chemistry :)
With all those in mind, i shall not let other things in life get to me and bogged me down. Life is out there waiting for me to live upon. I will step out, live life, and be happy.
Happiness is a choice. Half empty or half-full, its really up to u to decide, aint it?
May whoever's reading it have some food for thought and find what truly makes u happy.
And to Dingli of the future, may you have found your happiness and stay true to it.
Sunday, April 13, 2008
HI ALL :)
Hello, its beeen a looooong time since ive lastg sat down to blog. Sometimes i feel like writing something down, but after typing halfway i juz lost the mood (cuz suddenly some work or something needs my attention) and cant blog anymore. So lets just hope this post gets posted up eventually, or i have simply just wasted my time.
So, how have i been doing?
Pretty great i must say. If i were to look back 5 years from now, i would say this period is one of the times ive stepped out and really stretched my potential (although i would start to think this is also the period my grades start to falter).
Still, ive always promised myself to live life with no regrets, and so here i am. Yes my grades are definitely far from what ive envisioned it to be. But for the things ive wanted to do, the things ive wanted to try, im starting to step out. Ive taken leadership and responsibilities ive never thought i was able to handle. There are still sooo many things i want to do....so i shall never give up on my dreams and hopes. And as long as i live, i will strive harder to improve myself and that fire within me shall never be doused. ...Its only when you've lived through darkness will cherish every ray of light.....
So now...i must realy work towards my aims and goals...so here now...to whoever's still seeing this...my updates for my life. :)
Friends
It has always been great to have a buncha friends there to support u. :) im really happy that the brotherhood still stands strong after so many years. Despite our extremely busy schedule, all of us always finds that special time to spend together. It can be just a simple meal, over a coffee table, or some buffet dinner. Whatever it is, times spent with every single brother has always been heartwarming and memorable. I am who i am now because of them. But not to forget, ive made some great friends in NUS!!! they are the most fun bunch to be with and definitely the friendship with them will go on for many many years....so cheers!!! here's to all my friends and brothers!
Inner Self
Its been EXTREMELY hectic. I hardly have time to breathe. After one deadline is another and i am chasing the schedule almost everytime!!! Definitely not easy to be in SPS and ScienceClub at the same time! but well im always up for a challenge!!! wahahah. To lead the best rag team, and to strive in academics is definitely what ive been striving to do. Its tough, sometimes stretching myself very thin and feeling like im reaching nowhere for both sides...but im still optimistic that i can do it!!! Tired as it may be, my life is surely fulfilling and filled with many challenges. BRING IT ON!!
RAG
Challenges lie ahead...definitely not something to fool around with. I will be focusing all my energies on this and bringing my team to greater heights. I am very proud of my team and the talents ive been working with...we will surely have a great fun time together and bring Science Rag to ever greater heights! YARRRR!!!
Acadamics
Man...its not been easy handling so many things, but im still enjoying Chemistry. Never had a tinge of regret for choosing Chem. My passion for it still burns...just sometimes i feel ive done injustice to it by not having more time to read up and study for it. For my future, for my passion and dreams, ive gotta do this and do this good.
My partner
Last but not least...the most important woman in my life. haha...yes we r still not officially together, but i am simply enjoying the special moments spent with her. I am truly thankful to have her by my side and we shall spend more time to know each other better. Thank you, for your support and understanding. I will strive even harder, for a better future for both of us :D.
So, how have i been doing?
Pretty great i must say. If i were to look back 5 years from now, i would say this period is one of the times ive stepped out and really stretched my potential (although i would start to think this is also the period my grades start to falter).
Still, ive always promised myself to live life with no regrets, and so here i am. Yes my grades are definitely far from what ive envisioned it to be. But for the things ive wanted to do, the things ive wanted to try, im starting to step out. Ive taken leadership and responsibilities ive never thought i was able to handle. There are still sooo many things i want to do....so i shall never give up on my dreams and hopes. And as long as i live, i will strive harder to improve myself and that fire within me shall never be doused. ...Its only when you've lived through darkness will cherish every ray of light.....
So now...i must realy work towards my aims and goals...so here now...to whoever's still seeing this...my updates for my life. :)
Friends
It has always been great to have a buncha friends there to support u. :) im really happy that the brotherhood still stands strong after so many years. Despite our extremely busy schedule, all of us always finds that special time to spend together. It can be just a simple meal, over a coffee table, or some buffet dinner. Whatever it is, times spent with every single brother has always been heartwarming and memorable. I am who i am now because of them. But not to forget, ive made some great friends in NUS!!! they are the most fun bunch to be with and definitely the friendship with them will go on for many many years....so cheers!!! here's to all my friends and brothers!
Inner Self
Its been EXTREMELY hectic. I hardly have time to breathe. After one deadline is another and i am chasing the schedule almost everytime!!! Definitely not easy to be in SPS and ScienceClub at the same time! but well im always up for a challenge!!! wahahah. To lead the best rag team, and to strive in academics is definitely what ive been striving to do. Its tough, sometimes stretching myself very thin and feeling like im reaching nowhere for both sides...but im still optimistic that i can do it!!! Tired as it may be, my life is surely fulfilling and filled with many challenges. BRING IT ON!!
RAG
Challenges lie ahead...definitely not something to fool around with. I will be focusing all my energies on this and bringing my team to greater heights. I am very proud of my team and the talents ive been working with...we will surely have a great fun time together and bring Science Rag to ever greater heights! YARRRR!!!
Acadamics
Man...its not been easy handling so many things, but im still enjoying Chemistry. Never had a tinge of regret for choosing Chem. My passion for it still burns...just sometimes i feel ive done injustice to it by not having more time to read up and study for it. For my future, for my passion and dreams, ive gotta do this and do this good.
My partner
Last but not least...the most important woman in my life. haha...yes we r still not officially together, but i am simply enjoying the special moments spent with her. I am truly thankful to have her by my side and we shall spend more time to know each other better. Thank you, for your support and understanding. I will strive even harder, for a better future for both of us :D.
Sunday, February 24, 2008
Randomness
Its midterm "break"...ive finally given myself this short time to blog, think about things, and wonder about my life. Theres been alot alot running thru my mind all the time. and i dont really know what to blog exactly cuz theres too much to say.....
Hmm....its been a period of growth and development during the past months. theres always plenty to learn in life, and ive certainly grown stronger as a person. Heres a few perspective ive lived by for a majority of my life and sticks ever strongly till now:
Do not impose on others what you dont want imposed on you.
Live life to the fullest.
Never give up. Believe. Have faith in yourself and fight for your dreams.
...still got more...but...ahh...lost the mood to blog! LOL. the busy mode is coming back...nooooo....
Hmm....its been a period of growth and development during the past months. theres always plenty to learn in life, and ive certainly grown stronger as a person. Heres a few perspective ive lived by for a majority of my life and sticks ever strongly till now:
Do not impose on others what you dont want imposed on you.
Live life to the fullest.
Never give up. Believe. Have faith in yourself and fight for your dreams.
...still got more...but...ahh...lost the mood to blog! LOL. the busy mode is coming back...nooooo....
Monday, December 03, 2007
Dream Series
Its been a tiring stake-out with the books. Just before i let the night lull me to sleep i will spare a moment or two to share some of my thoughts ive had settled in the very core of my soul.
Dreams.
The pursuit of my goals in life is the focus of my being, the purpose of my life. How many people have really found what they really want to do in life? Then again, am i absolutely sure that in five, ten years down the road ill still be harbouring the same dreams ive had now? I suppose no one knows what the future holds so i shall not worry myself unneccessary with that, cuz even if my goals change, i am sure i will be focused towards whatever i do. I am a guy who lives for his dreams.
My life has been full of ironies, and my dreams is no exception to it. Its always been a clash between chasing of dreams vs. realities of life. Unfortunatly, my dream of discovery and invention does not exactly meet the requirements of "success" in terms of reality and society perspectives. What does success really mean? Money? Status?
Money is the reality of life i have come to admit, but i shall never let it cloud my mind. For me, material possessions are for the survival in this world. Money makes the world go round. People spend the whole of their lives working to death. For what purpose? Mainly to make ends meet, to make sure you have a roof over your head, your family well-fed, your fines duely paid. Yes you live on, you survive in this world. You become a statistic, a person trapped in an endless cycle, just to carry on living. As days wear on, you grow more tired of life, you bow down to reality, you wait for your time to come. When you look back, will there be something you would be really proud of? Or will there be endless regrets and what-ifs?
I know myself. At the end of it all, its not the size of my account, nor the amount of material possession that matters. Its the life that ive lived. One that ive spent pursuing my dreams, doing what i really love, and being happy in it. Its what ive accomplished as a human being, not how much material possession i have as a follower of reality.
What really fuels me is the pursuit of my dreams, and an endless process of self-discovery and understanding. I know, my dreams may not lead me to riches, but i am enjoying what im doing. Its my happiness that matters. The fulfillment of my soul, the development of my being, and the enjoyment of living a life.
Dreams are my everything, and no one will ever take it away from me.
For my dreams, for my future....Fight on!!!
I'd recommend this site, if you have a dream to follow:
http://www.wisebread.com/can-you-afford-to-follow-your-dreams-can-you-afford-not-to
Dreams.
The pursuit of my goals in life is the focus of my being, the purpose of my life. How many people have really found what they really want to do in life? Then again, am i absolutely sure that in five, ten years down the road ill still be harbouring the same dreams ive had now? I suppose no one knows what the future holds so i shall not worry myself unneccessary with that, cuz even if my goals change, i am sure i will be focused towards whatever i do. I am a guy who lives for his dreams.
My life has been full of ironies, and my dreams is no exception to it. Its always been a clash between chasing of dreams vs. realities of life. Unfortunatly, my dream of discovery and invention does not exactly meet the requirements of "success" in terms of reality and society perspectives. What does success really mean? Money? Status?
Money is the reality of life i have come to admit, but i shall never let it cloud my mind. For me, material possessions are for the survival in this world. Money makes the world go round. People spend the whole of their lives working to death. For what purpose? Mainly to make ends meet, to make sure you have a roof over your head, your family well-fed, your fines duely paid. Yes you live on, you survive in this world. You become a statistic, a person trapped in an endless cycle, just to carry on living. As days wear on, you grow more tired of life, you bow down to reality, you wait for your time to come. When you look back, will there be something you would be really proud of? Or will there be endless regrets and what-ifs?
I know myself. At the end of it all, its not the size of my account, nor the amount of material possession that matters. Its the life that ive lived. One that ive spent pursuing my dreams, doing what i really love, and being happy in it. Its what ive accomplished as a human being, not how much material possession i have as a follower of reality.
What really fuels me is the pursuit of my dreams, and an endless process of self-discovery and understanding. I know, my dreams may not lead me to riches, but i am enjoying what im doing. Its my happiness that matters. The fulfillment of my soul, the development of my being, and the enjoyment of living a life.
Dreams are my everything, and no one will ever take it away from me.
For my dreams, for my future....Fight on!!!
I'd recommend this site, if you have a dream to follow:
http://www.wisebread.com/can-you-afford-to-follow-your-dreams-can-you-afford-not-to
Sunday, December 02, 2007
Life Series
Tired. Exam fatigue gnaws on the boundaries of my soul. It eats into my life energy. Much have happened since i last blogged, and i cant wait to update em. Just abit tired so ill just post a short paragraph. :)
In life, things will never always turn out the way you want it to be. Life always throws you a punch when you least expect it. For me, having come to this point in life, its not about how many punches ive received from my life experiences, its about how ive managed to get back up stronger everytime. I am not one to give up. never.
Even if the whole world is against me and my dreams, i will not give up. Cuz i know it myself - if i lose my dreams, i am nothing.
So keep on fighting. One day i will make it to the top. I can do it, and i will do it.
In life, things will never always turn out the way you want it to be. Life always throws you a punch when you least expect it. For me, having come to this point in life, its not about how many punches ive received from my life experiences, its about how ive managed to get back up stronger everytime. I am not one to give up. never.
Even if the whole world is against me and my dreams, i will not give up. Cuz i know it myself - if i lose my dreams, i am nothing.
So keep on fighting. One day i will make it to the top. I can do it, and i will do it.
Thursday, October 11, 2007
Whizzing by....
yo! its been quite a whirl on my life right now, so i tot ill just zip by to update myself to myself here. Since im rushing a lab report right now, my brain is working in quite a systematic point form format, i might as well use it. Here's the update so far in my life:
-Science Club Management Committee as Rag Director.
Ive never thought that role was easy and turned out i was more true than ever. Its my first time handling such a big project. The harder it is, the stronger ill become. I see it as a great challenge and i am sure i will learn alot out of this experience.
-Special Programme in Science
In a bid to pursue my dream of being outstanding ad successful in the research field (i have i feeling this dream will get bigger as i discover more of my capabilities), ive joined SPS. Im starting to get more in touch with various aspects of sciences and its been pretty interesting so far, if not time consuming. Ill be looking forward to more in depth research and collaboration with professors who share my passion.
-Family
Im starting to step more into communicating with my family. Thanks to the encouragement of my partner. Im talking more with my dad and sis. Its been great and things are definitely progressing well in my family.
-Friends
Ive been making more friends than ever. The role of Rag director pushes me to go out and meet more people, since the project im running really depends on alot of people power. I have to learn how to socialise effectively and make an impact.
-My partner
dance partner, best of friends...life partner??? Its a mature and stable bond. And its very special. I really couldnt have ask for anyone better. but we wont be together until....
-Myself
Its been crazy inside. After stepping out to the world, my inner world really is going haywire. Things inside sometimes juz stop halfway cuz i have to attend to things in the outside world. I hardly have time for my inner world and listen to my depth of thoughts. Socially, im still in the process of opening up....been meeting alot of new people so im usually more quiet at first...but im sure it'll change in time ;)
Studies....its even more hectic. with so many commitments sometimes i barely have time to finish up things. Its crazy man....24 hours is really not enough. Theres really alot of things to prioritise and think about .
Ok thats the very basic update on my life!!! I guess....its a really fulfilling and challenging phase of my life right now. The days just keep whizzing by.....gosh....
-Science Club Management Committee as Rag Director.
Ive never thought that role was easy and turned out i was more true than ever. Its my first time handling such a big project. The harder it is, the stronger ill become. I see it as a great challenge and i am sure i will learn alot out of this experience.
-Special Programme in Science
In a bid to pursue my dream of being outstanding ad successful in the research field (i have i feeling this dream will get bigger as i discover more of my capabilities), ive joined SPS. Im starting to get more in touch with various aspects of sciences and its been pretty interesting so far, if not time consuming. Ill be looking forward to more in depth research and collaboration with professors who share my passion.
-Family
Im starting to step more into communicating with my family. Thanks to the encouragement of my partner. Im talking more with my dad and sis. Its been great and things are definitely progressing well in my family.
-Friends
Ive been making more friends than ever. The role of Rag director pushes me to go out and meet more people, since the project im running really depends on alot of people power. I have to learn how to socialise effectively and make an impact.
-My partner
dance partner, best of friends...life partner??? Its a mature and stable bond. And its very special. I really couldnt have ask for anyone better. but we wont be together until....
-Myself
Its been crazy inside. After stepping out to the world, my inner world really is going haywire. Things inside sometimes juz stop halfway cuz i have to attend to things in the outside world. I hardly have time for my inner world and listen to my depth of thoughts. Socially, im still in the process of opening up....been meeting alot of new people so im usually more quiet at first...but im sure it'll change in time ;)
Studies....its even more hectic. with so many commitments sometimes i barely have time to finish up things. Its crazy man....24 hours is really not enough. Theres really alot of things to prioritise and think about .
Ok thats the very basic update on my life!!! I guess....its a really fulfilling and challenging phase of my life right now. The days just keep whizzing by.....gosh....
Sunday, August 26, 2007
Me and my inner world
Much to the accuracy of Andy's horoscope analysis, im indeed a person who looks inside myself more than anything else. These days...somehow...i just keep looking inside to try resolve whats really happening. Make no mistake, im still very busy with school and activities. Its just that...i guess i just tend think about too many things...sometimes too complicated, too senseless, or too flighty for my own good. I always wonder y im like that, is it really largely predetermined by the place and time i was borned? Or did past experiences shaped me into who i am today?
Both, i suppose.
Ive always thought that i must face the world out there someday. But before i can do that successfully, i must resolve all issues within myself. Apparently, theres still a lot of work to be done within me. And sometimes i wonder, when will i be ready? Will i ever be ready? I hate to be the peripheral of activities, of conversations, of situations. I want to engage life, i want to be part of actvities. I dont want to stand and observe by the sidelines, as i have for 21 years. Yet, i fear. Or rather, whenever i sense disturbances from within, my consciousness attempts to sink into the deeper realms to reason myself out, thus appearing self-absorbed and in my own world. That is why i thought: i must really resolve whats in before i step out. Apparently, progress is painfully slow and sometimes i really wonder if i can really be able to find my way out of this path all by myself.
Can i just give up trying to solve whats within and just throw myself out to enjoy and grab life without any considerations and worries?.. im still not sure. Im one who usually looks at the path, sometimes taking too long, before i actually make concrete steps. And sometimes, opportunities have already been missed and the path did not look as welcoming as before.
Why am i suddenly having these kinda thoughts i wonder....because....these days....opportunities seem to fly past me so often...yet i was too self-absorbed to make full use of them. Or maybe, its that special someone that make me wonder who i really am now.
Tell me, how do i really step out into the world out there when every step is hindered by my incomprehensible web of unresolved issues?
Haha...but one thing is for sure. I always feel this engine of optimism that never dies even when i force depressing thoughts onto myself. LOL. It is that part in me that brought me this far in life, and he says: WAKE UP YOUR IDEA. LOL.
I guess im a living contradiction. heh heh.
Both, i suppose.
Ive always thought that i must face the world out there someday. But before i can do that successfully, i must resolve all issues within myself. Apparently, theres still a lot of work to be done within me. And sometimes i wonder, when will i be ready? Will i ever be ready? I hate to be the peripheral of activities, of conversations, of situations. I want to engage life, i want to be part of actvities. I dont want to stand and observe by the sidelines, as i have for 21 years. Yet, i fear. Or rather, whenever i sense disturbances from within, my consciousness attempts to sink into the deeper realms to reason myself out, thus appearing self-absorbed and in my own world. That is why i thought: i must really resolve whats in before i step out. Apparently, progress is painfully slow and sometimes i really wonder if i can really be able to find my way out of this path all by myself.
Can i just give up trying to solve whats within and just throw myself out to enjoy and grab life without any considerations and worries?.. im still not sure. Im one who usually looks at the path, sometimes taking too long, before i actually make concrete steps. And sometimes, opportunities have already been missed and the path did not look as welcoming as before.
Why am i suddenly having these kinda thoughts i wonder....because....these days....opportunities seem to fly past me so often...yet i was too self-absorbed to make full use of them. Or maybe, its that special someone that make me wonder who i really am now.
Tell me, how do i really step out into the world out there when every step is hindered by my incomprehensible web of unresolved issues?
Haha...but one thing is for sure. I always feel this engine of optimism that never dies even when i force depressing thoughts onto myself. LOL. It is that part in me that brought me this far in life, and he says: WAKE UP YOUR IDEA. LOL.
I guess im a living contradiction. heh heh.
Saturday, August 04, 2007
Finding Myself.
One of the cores in my life would be whats happening within myself. No one knows it. No one sees it. From my perspective, if i cant get my inner workings resolved and solidified, it will be difficult to fully open up to the world out there and show who i really am. Of course, ive also realised i still need to keep in touch with reality while sorting out my inner self. So now im semi-opened to the world out there while having personal time to resolve my internal issues.
I seek the the acceptance and confidence of myself, for who i am, and for what i am not. Many people have surely wrestled with this idea for a long time. Some gave up, some moved on, some are still embroiled in a sea of emotions.
Sometimes i see how people can live up to the crowd, how they blend into social groups seamlessly, how people are attracted to their energy and charisma. I know im capable of doing that, when i fully 'evolve' and have the confidence to show the real me to anyone, anytime. I know i have that kind of charisma and energy, its just about showing it. The problem comes when i fear how people may not like my true self, how people may criticise, how people may be offended.
I am cautious when in comes to relationships. Thats why people normally would know my quiet self (my shield) first before i can warm up to that person. I suppose after the stuff ive been through i dun trust people easily. I need to know the person, establish some rapport and trust, before i can move on to being myself comfortably.
The sad thing comes in here : My shield has protected me for ages. Yet at the same time it has deprived me of things i want. Having my closest, most trusted relationship removed from my life many years ago has certainly set my inner protective mechanism deep in stone. People usually say im shy or quiet. That is true to some extent...because that is my shield set in position...and i wld say the shield has already melded into me. But trust me, the people who know the real me will never say im quiet and shy. In fact i talk and joke alot with them. Well thats another side to me people seldom get the chance to know.
The reason i do not form close bonds with people easily is because i fear that the closer the bond...the more painful and harder it is when the bonds break off (this reminds me of a certain character in FF8). And so the shield prevents people from knowing the real me, and at the same time, prevents me from showing my true self and feeling close attachment to others. Indeed the shield has worked very well...but sometimes...i feel that ive missed many many social opportunities and fun because of that. Sometimes i feel left out...because im not someone who can lift up the crowd and be crazy, with my shield in place. Sometime i feel that this person has the potential to be a great friend, yet my shield prevents me from opening up and i end up probably giving the wrong signal that im antisocial and quiet...when actually inside im not!!! And sometimes i think, why cant i show the charisma? why cant i display the confidence? why can i just be myself in front of everyone???
Things have certainly gotten better as the years gone by. Im letting down my shield bit by bit, im starting to appear more friendly...though i still cant get away from being quiet when the situation somehow makes me wanna set up my shield. Slowly and surely more people are starting to see my natural self. Yes i still need time. I still need time to accept myself. I need to know that the shield has already become part of me, and should i use it all the time...its natural i cant be who i actually am. And it again boils down to the confidence i need to have. I need to know that i am myself and no one can be me. I need to know that even if people might dislike who i am, and that they might have their criticisms, i am still me. As long as i am confortable with being myself, i will live a happy and fulfilled life with no regrets. Certainly its easier said than done. Progress is being made...ive experienced less turmoils compared to years before.
...oh wells theres still more to be said but im getting tired of typing and translating abstract inner thoughts into words. All the best to me!!!
I seek the the acceptance and confidence of myself, for who i am, and for what i am not. Many people have surely wrestled with this idea for a long time. Some gave up, some moved on, some are still embroiled in a sea of emotions.
Sometimes i see how people can live up to the crowd, how they blend into social groups seamlessly, how people are attracted to their energy and charisma. I know im capable of doing that, when i fully 'evolve' and have the confidence to show the real me to anyone, anytime. I know i have that kind of charisma and energy, its just about showing it. The problem comes when i fear how people may not like my true self, how people may criticise, how people may be offended.
I am cautious when in comes to relationships. Thats why people normally would know my quiet self (my shield) first before i can warm up to that person. I suppose after the stuff ive been through i dun trust people easily. I need to know the person, establish some rapport and trust, before i can move on to being myself comfortably.
The sad thing comes in here : My shield has protected me for ages. Yet at the same time it has deprived me of things i want. Having my closest, most trusted relationship removed from my life many years ago has certainly set my inner protective mechanism deep in stone. People usually say im shy or quiet. That is true to some extent...because that is my shield set in position...and i wld say the shield has already melded into me. But trust me, the people who know the real me will never say im quiet and shy. In fact i talk and joke alot with them. Well thats another side to me people seldom get the chance to know.
The reason i do not form close bonds with people easily is because i fear that the closer the bond...the more painful and harder it is when the bonds break off (this reminds me of a certain character in FF8). And so the shield prevents people from knowing the real me, and at the same time, prevents me from showing my true self and feeling close attachment to others. Indeed the shield has worked very well...but sometimes...i feel that ive missed many many social opportunities and fun because of that. Sometimes i feel left out...because im not someone who can lift up the crowd and be crazy, with my shield in place. Sometime i feel that this person has the potential to be a great friend, yet my shield prevents me from opening up and i end up probably giving the wrong signal that im antisocial and quiet...when actually inside im not!!! And sometimes i think, why cant i show the charisma? why cant i display the confidence? why can i just be myself in front of everyone???
Things have certainly gotten better as the years gone by. Im letting down my shield bit by bit, im starting to appear more friendly...though i still cant get away from being quiet when the situation somehow makes me wanna set up my shield. Slowly and surely more people are starting to see my natural self. Yes i still need time. I still need time to accept myself. I need to know that the shield has already become part of me, and should i use it all the time...its natural i cant be who i actually am. And it again boils down to the confidence i need to have. I need to know that i am myself and no one can be me. I need to know that even if people might dislike who i am, and that they might have their criticisms, i am still me. As long as i am confortable with being myself, i will live a happy and fulfilled life with no regrets. Certainly its easier said than done. Progress is being made...ive experienced less turmoils compared to years before.
...oh wells theres still more to be said but im getting tired of typing and translating abstract inner thoughts into words. All the best to me!!!
To myself, follow your mantra : what would you do when you experience no fear? You will reach the skies, you will break your limits, and you will be the best you can ever be. So strive with courage, fight as though your life depends on it, and never ever give up on yourself.
Monday, July 30, 2007
Greater hopes
Hopes and dreams play such a big part of my life. If not for them i wouldnt have reached till this stage of my life...of which i am quite satisfied with..(although there is always plenty of room for improvement). Amidst all the hustle bustle of life in NUS rag...my perspective of life has been getting more optimistic than ever.
Being in Science aint a bad thing afterall. Prospects in Science aint as bad as people say afterall. Friends in Science are great friends indeed. So whats there to worry about?
Modules. Pathing my future is proving to be much of a brain-sapping task. Not that i detest it....i enjoy the control i have over the plotting of my life...but its juz that with all the commitment into rag dance, i do not have the luxury of time to really sit down and have a full analysis of my modular plotting. Well...but im doing well so far... its all about time and energy management. But there are really so many doors of opportunities...i have to maximise my available choice yet still choose the right door to venture into. Man...i love the challenge!!!
Rag Dance. Cant be more fun and crazy. Those buncha peeps are the most fun and happening people around!!! Though i really seem introverted with their super explosive self-high personalities, im really glad they pulled me into it and im starting to open up and be wild too!!! haha..WOOT!!! EXTREMELY FUN!!! but its still tiring to the body..haha.
Social. Friends have always played a key role in my life. Im glad that im making alot of new and close friends!!! A lot of worthy friends are still out there for me to further my understanding. Its been really great!!! I cant wait to get to know even more friends!! :D
Me. Everyday is a great new day (besides crawling outta my bed early for dance and snoozing for 20min every morning). I learn new things, know people better, and know myself better. Im maturing and growing with every experience everyday...everything's looking great!!!
Cant wait for the day we perform for the public at Rag Day and compete for the Chancellor's Shield!!! (Its gonna be ours!!!!). Cant wait for school to start. Cant wait to meet new friends and make closer friends!!!
Cant wait to finally make my first step towards my dream...
Being in Science aint a bad thing afterall. Prospects in Science aint as bad as people say afterall. Friends in Science are great friends indeed. So whats there to worry about?
Modules. Pathing my future is proving to be much of a brain-sapping task. Not that i detest it....i enjoy the control i have over the plotting of my life...but its juz that with all the commitment into rag dance, i do not have the luxury of time to really sit down and have a full analysis of my modular plotting. Well...but im doing well so far... its all about time and energy management. But there are really so many doors of opportunities...i have to maximise my available choice yet still choose the right door to venture into. Man...i love the challenge!!!
Rag Dance. Cant be more fun and crazy. Those buncha peeps are the most fun and happening people around!!! Though i really seem introverted with their super explosive self-high personalities, im really glad they pulled me into it and im starting to open up and be wild too!!! haha..WOOT!!! EXTREMELY FUN!!! but its still tiring to the body..haha.
Social. Friends have always played a key role in my life. Im glad that im making alot of new and close friends!!! A lot of worthy friends are still out there for me to further my understanding. Its been really great!!! I cant wait to get to know even more friends!! :D
Me. Everyday is a great new day (besides crawling outta my bed early for dance and snoozing for 20min every morning). I learn new things, know people better, and know myself better. Im maturing and growing with every experience everyday...everything's looking great!!!
Cant wait for the day we perform for the public at Rag Day and compete for the Chancellor's Shield!!! (Its gonna be ours!!!!). Cant wait for school to start. Cant wait to meet new friends and make closer friends!!!
Cant wait to finally make my first step towards my dream...
Tuesday, July 17, 2007
Midnight issues...
Im up. Im still up. These days im just sleeping less and doing more. So this is one of the times i feel my mind's exploding with subconscious issues yet i cant pinpoint what is it exactly. My conscious mind is too tired to sift things out for critical analysis of my inner self.
Everyday i learn new things. Everyday i have new ideas. I dunno how to put it...but with whatever conscious energy i have...i could only come up with this:
I am searching. Searching for something elusive in my life. I dont really know what is it. I have clear goals set out for my life...so what is it that im still searching? A sense of security about my future? A feeling of love to make me feel complete? The bonding of friends to make me feel wanted? ..... i cant really pinpoint it yet....but its juz gnawing inside me. Brooding.
I am not one to let my inner troubles subside and fade...i will pull it out, analyse it, and solve the problem. That is how i keep in touch with my inner self, no matter how tormenting it might be to wage war with my inner self. That is how i learn, that is how i grow, that is how i mature.
Maybe its time....my subconscious is telling me...its time i head to a park or a beach to sit down and 'talk' with myself. To think about my life, my heart, my soul.....
Everyday i learn new things. Everyday i have new ideas. I dunno how to put it...but with whatever conscious energy i have...i could only come up with this:
I am searching. Searching for something elusive in my life. I dont really know what is it. I have clear goals set out for my life...so what is it that im still searching? A sense of security about my future? A feeling of love to make me feel complete? The bonding of friends to make me feel wanted? ..... i cant really pinpoint it yet....but its juz gnawing inside me. Brooding.
I am not one to let my inner troubles subside and fade...i will pull it out, analyse it, and solve the problem. That is how i keep in touch with my inner self, no matter how tormenting it might be to wage war with my inner self. That is how i learn, that is how i grow, that is how i mature.
Maybe its time....my subconscious is telling me...its time i head to a park or a beach to sit down and 'talk' with myself. To think about my life, my heart, my soul.....
Thursday, July 12, 2007
Busy...busy...busy
Was trying to post something about dreams, having watched Pursuit of Happyness some days ago on DVD ...but i dun really have the energy to organise my swirling thoughts and type it out here... so ill just go for something casual for this post.
Yep very busy right now. Extremely busy. Never would i imagine myself to take part in science rag dance!!! haha well its hell lots of fun getting involved in something brand new!! but its very tiring, especially when its 4 days a week and 7 hrs a day... on top of my work. The people there are crazy and have self-explosive personalities so i seemed even more so like some quiet freak...aww damned. Wells good thing is they are all friendly people...abit high and crazy like me when i manage to really let go and let myself out. haha...so im sure ill start to open myself up in time to come!!!
The time i have online right now to chill and listen to songs is really a luxury....
For 4 days everyweek i have to wake up at 7.30 am for dance sessions @ NUS till 4 pm and rush back to work from 5 pm till 10 pm. The remaining weekday w/o dance i have to work from 9.30 am till 11 pm to cover up my lost working hours due to dance. (actually its self-imposed cuz i got work responsibilities i cant let go). Weekends? I still work from 9.30 am to 6 pm and theres tuition till 9 pm after that. So everyday i go out b4 the sun is fully up and come back after the sun is way down. If there happen to be ANY free time, they will be given to my bros, my friends, and the sci rag events.
Haha no wonder my IC at work calls me a superman...lol...everyday i have schedules fully packed and everyday i sleep less than 6 hrs... yet i can still keep my spirits and energy up (i think...)
Well im not complaining cuz i really think im making every minute of my life count. Im trying out new things, making many new friends, and still chasing my goals and dreams!!! Aside from some emotional setback...my life couldnt be more fulfilling. 24 hrs a day is simply not enough!!!
Yep very busy right now. Extremely busy. Never would i imagine myself to take part in science rag dance!!! haha well its hell lots of fun getting involved in something brand new!! but its very tiring, especially when its 4 days a week and 7 hrs a day... on top of my work. The people there are crazy and have self-explosive personalities so i seemed even more so like some quiet freak...aww damned. Wells good thing is they are all friendly people...abit high and crazy like me when i manage to really let go and let myself out. haha...so im sure ill start to open myself up in time to come!!!
The time i have online right now to chill and listen to songs is really a luxury....
For 4 days everyweek i have to wake up at 7.30 am for dance sessions @ NUS till 4 pm and rush back to work from 5 pm till 10 pm. The remaining weekday w/o dance i have to work from 9.30 am till 11 pm to cover up my lost working hours due to dance. (actually its self-imposed cuz i got work responsibilities i cant let go). Weekends? I still work from 9.30 am to 6 pm and theres tuition till 9 pm after that. So everyday i go out b4 the sun is fully up and come back after the sun is way down. If there happen to be ANY free time, they will be given to my bros, my friends, and the sci rag events.
Haha no wonder my IC at work calls me a superman...lol...everyday i have schedules fully packed and everyday i sleep less than 6 hrs... yet i can still keep my spirits and energy up (i think...)
Well im not complaining cuz i really think im making every minute of my life count. Im trying out new things, making many new friends, and still chasing my goals and dreams!!! Aside from some emotional setback...my life couldnt be more fulfilling. 24 hrs a day is simply not enough!!!